Addiction & Recovery

Caffeine did not cause anything. It taught me that the brain I woke up with wasn’t the brain I had to keep, and that lesson generalised. A personal account with the pharmacology attached, including why three tablespoons of grounds per cup felt almost identical to low dose amphetamine.

BloodshotEyes came to a Norwegian forum asking how to inject heroin. Over the next four years, strangers watched his experiment become dependence, relapse, treatment, and despair.

A personal account of addiction, self-deception, replacement, loneliness, and why understanding the mechanism does not make you immune to it.