Essays, experiments, and writeups
Long-form essays, experiments, personal stories, and technical writeups, shelved by subject. Pick the shelf that matches your obsession, or filter; every piece is dated, newest first.
16 published pieces · grouped by subject, newest first · 2018–2026
How dependence actually works from the inside: the mechanics, the self-deception, and what recovery looked like.
Caffeine did not cause anything. It taught me that the brain I woke up with wasn't the brain I had to keep, and that lesson generalised. A personal account with the pharmacology attached, including why three tablespoons of grounds per cup felt almost identical to low dose amphetamine.
BloodshotEyes came to a Norwegian forum asking how to inject heroin. Over the next four years, strangers watched his experiment become dependence, relapse, treatment, and despair.
A personal account of addiction, self-deception, replacement, loneliness, and why understanding the mechanism does not make you immune to it.
Notes on compounds, mechanisms, risk, and the difference between curiosity and self-harm.
A slightly angry magnesium deep-dive: deficiency and soil, elemental magnesium, labels that make no sense, the real reason oxide absorbs poorly, and where studies and anecdotes each belong.
A personal, harm-aware note on PPAP HCl: mechanism, effect profile, self-experimentation bias, and why productive does not automatically mean safe.
People use drugs whether anyone approves or not. This shelf is about keeping them alive and intact: doses, interactions, testing, and honest risk.
The message I keep getting, answered once and properly: hormones, conversion pathways, compounds, bloodwork, injection technique, PCT, the cardiovascular data, and how to find out what is actually in the vial.
A harm reduction guide to street amphetamine: reading contamination by eye, the acetone wash, the purity paradox that puts people in ambulances, reagent and lab testing, routes, interactions, and what to actually measure.
Tapers, withdrawal, timelines, what to use instead, and the psychology of getting sober.
Nothing here yet. Writeups land as I get them written.
Models, references, experiments, and tools for turning messy observations into better questions.
A rant about how people actually use studies: reading the headline, skipping the methods, and confusing confidence with understanding. On confounders, trial groups, funding bias, why 'no evidence' isn't 'dangerous', and why anecdotes are early signals worth taking seriously.
A practical framework for reading the body as a noisy sensor array: pupils, sweating, gut sounds, reflexes, vitals, HRV, confounders, and the limits of self-observation.
Thoughts on language models, tool use, safety, agency, and the strange direction software is taking.
I took second place in Cyberlandslaget 2025 and then quit CTFs. Not because I stopped loving the puzzles, but because AI changed what the leaderboard measures. On losing a hobby to the tool I use every day.
A blunt essay on AI as a present-tense force: alignment, acceleration, agency, consciousness, and the uncomfortable possibility that joining the system becomes the only realistic move.
A personal argument for clearer AI safety boundaries: use context, cite the evidence, give the safe part of the answer, and do not demand an identity profile in return.
Practical breakdowns of how systems fail: fraud mechanics, spoofed trust, and the assumptions that break first.
The Norwegian national ID number is treated as a secret and structurally cannot be one. A walk through the mod-11 arithmetic, a count of what a birthday actually leaves, and why 2032 is an admission.
A defensive guide to how credit-card fraud works in practice: leaked numbers, social media exposure, NFC myths, physical theft, dark-web resale, and realistic protection.
A practical look at RTLO, shortcuts, misleading extensions, NTFS streams, archives, and polyglots through the thing they all exploit: disagreement about what a file actually is.
An archive of my CTF results, writeups, and techniques.
A 1753CTF solve showing why ordinary PRNGs are useful but wrong for secrets, how a predictable seed breaks XOR encryption, and what CSPRNGs do differently.
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